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Letters to God: Faith

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Dear God, There are days when I don’t have the words. Days when my heart is quiet, not out of peace—but exhaustion. When the prayers don’t come easily, and faith feels like reaching into the dark, hoping You’ll still be there. Today is one of those days. I want to believe, truly I do, but some moments feel heavier than others. The waiting feels long. The silence feels loud and even though I’ve seen Your goodness before, I sometimes wonder if You still hear me. But even in my doubt, I still reach for You. That must mean something. So here I am, Lord. Not perfect. Not whole. But present. That has to count for something, too. If nothing else, thank You for never growing tired of me. Thank You for grace that meets me when I fall short. For loving me in my wrestle, not just in my worship. Help me find peace in the unknown. Remind me that You’re not gone when You’re quiet. And even if my faith is trembling, let it still be real—because I’m still choosing to turn toward You, even in ...

Letters to God: Finding Purpose

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Dear God, This is my last attempt at blogging. Honestly, I feel so lost. At times, ideas flow effortlessly, and I’m brimming with content, but then I hit a wall where I have nothing to offer. I’m uncertain whether it’s social anxiety, fear of how others will perceive me, or the worry that no one will read my articles. I love writing—I know it's a gift you’ve blessed me with—but I’m scared. Scared to practice, scared to grow, and scared to fully embrace myself in this journey. I don’t feel aligned with my purpose—not because I lack financial success—but because I sense a deeper misalignment. I’ve tried pursuing what I believe you’ve called me to do, yet I often find myself stuck. The emptiness of being out of alignment is overwhelming, and sometimes it feels as though you’re distant, as though you’ve left me to navigate this alone. These thoughts can spiral into self-doubt, making it seem reasonable in those moments to believe the worst about myself. For the past two years, I h...

Letters to God: Loneliness & Sin

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Dear God, It’s incredible how loneliness can lead to so much sin. I find myself drowning in struggles I’ve never faced before, yet they’ve somehow become part of my identity. It’s astonishing how a small habit can spiral into addiction. Sin brings nothing but emptiness and loneliness, and I feel trapped. I’ve always desired to get married and have a husband, but I didn’t trust your timing. I rushed into my own plans, and now I’m stuck with the consequences. After breaking up with my ex—someone I almost had a child with—I quickly moved in with my current partner. At first, things were great. But then he started cheating, finding excuses to leave the house whenever possible. I didn’t learn of it until after we had our child, who is now a toddler. Even after finding out, I stayed. I used to believe I’d walk away if a partner ever cheated on me. Yet here I am. When he promised he wouldn’t do it again, I chose to believe him. But then it happened again—this time with a colleague. The m...