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Dear God, There are days when I don’t have the words. Days when my heart is quiet, not out of peace—but exhaustion. When the prayers don’t come easily, and faith feels like reaching into the dark, hoping You’ll still be there. Today is one of those days. I want to believe, truly I do, but some moments feel heavier than others. The waiting feels long. The silence feels loud and even though I’ve seen Your goodness before, I sometimes wonder if You still hear me. But even in my doubt, I still reach for You. That must mean something. So here I am, Lord. Not perfect. Not whole. But present. That has to count for something, too. If nothing else, thank You for never growing tired of me. Thank You for grace that meets me when I fall short. For loving me in my wrestle, not just in my worship. Help me find peace in the unknown. Remind me that You’re not gone when You’re quiet. And even if my faith is trembling, let it still be real—because I’m still choosing to turn toward You, even in ...

Dear God, This is my last attempt at blogging. Honestly, I feel so lost. At times, ideas flow effortlessly, and I’m brimming with content, but then I hit a wall where I have nothing to offer. I’m uncertain whether it’s social anxiety, fear of how others will perceive me, or the worry that no one will read my articles. I love writing—I know it's a gift you’ve blessed me with—but I’m scared. Scared to practice, scared to grow, and scared to fully embrace myself in this journey. I don’t feel aligned with my purpose—not because I lack financial success—but because I sense a deeper misalignment. I’ve tried pursuing what I believe you’ve called me to do, yet I often find myself stuck. The emptiness of being out of alignment is overwhelming, and sometimes it feels as though you’re distant, as though you’ve left me to navigate this alone. These thoughts can spiral into self-doubt, making it seem reasonable in those moments to believe the worst about myself. For the past two years, I h...

Dear God, It’s incredible how loneliness can lead to so much sin. I find myself drowning in struggles I’ve never faced before, yet they’ve somehow become part of my identity. It’s astonishing how a small habit can spiral into addiction. Sin brings nothing but emptiness and loneliness, and I feel trapped. I’ve always desired to get married and have a husband, but I didn’t trust your timing. I rushed into my own plans, and now I’m stuck with the consequences. After breaking up with my ex—someone I almost had a child with—I quickly moved in with my current partner. At first, things were great. But then he started cheating, finding excuses to leave the house whenever possible. I didn’t learn of it until after we had our child, who is now a toddler. Even after finding out, I stayed. I used to believe I’d walk away if a partner ever cheated on me. Yet here I am. When he promised he wouldn’t do it again, I chose to believe him. But then it happened again—this time with a colleague. The m...

One of the most important aspects of growing closer to God is learning how to communicate with Him. But sometimes it can be hard to tell the difference between your own thoughts, God's voice and the enemy's voice. I used to think that God's voice was always loud and stern, telling me to stop sinning and do better. But as I spent more time with Him, I realized that His voice is actually gentle and comforting, His voice fills me with peace, joy and confidence, while the enemy's voice tries to distract me, make me doubt and confuse me. And my own voice is often stuck in the middle, wondering "Is this really God? God, if this is you, give me another sign". The Bible says in Psalm 145:18, "The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." And in Matthew 6:33, it says "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Here are some tips to help you strengthen your relat...

Still today, I still find myself explaining to friends, family and even colleagues about why I'm having an emotional breakdown because to them it's still taboo for a black child to be going through such. Words like 'why are you having an emotional breakdown, those are white people illnesses', 'why are you still holding on to that you need to get over it and move on', 'you probably just acting up' are words I get from family and friend's who think me having anxiety is just me acting up or seeking attention. A few months ago I lost my cousin who was like a best friend to me. I didn't know how to mourn him especially because I couldn't even go to his funeral so as a writer I resorted to writing. This helped for a couple of weeks because I felt I wasn't doing justice in honouring his memory. The plan was to ease the pain and be at a point where when I think about him I smile, I laugh and maybe giggle just a little bit. For those w...

It's a pity that my generation has become numb towards things that matter. Things like spiritual welfare, cultural and traditional practice's. We choose to practice what we want, when we want and how we want. Terms and sayings like "YOLO" (you only live once) "FOMO" (fear of missing out) "Situationship" (less of a relationship and more of a casual encounter, more or less a casual sexual encounter) "Entanglement" (being involved with two or more individuals) have left my generation thinking they can have sexual encounters without having any "inconveniences" or rather "backlashes" for it. Many young people find themselves getting stuck between keeping up with their morals, values and friends who keep reminding them on terms like "YOLO" and sayings like "it's just sex friend". My friend Karabo* (not her real name) hated it every time I told her that going to the club degrade...

 'Abby!,  Hi  can  we  meet up  with  you? whats  your  schedule  looking  like?  are  you  available  for  the  event we are putting  together? how much do you charge?' those  were the kind of messages I was receiving before the pandemic. I was an unstoppable  train, I was on the run hosting events back  and forth, facilitating workshops and  dialogues at different organizations until  the pandemic came and caused a huge turn  over, more like a havoc! A tsunami if I could  label it that.  I'm not sure how other people are handling  the pandemic, I also don't know much damage it caused but for me it was havoc. I had to start over, I had to rethink everthing  that I was doing. I had to reconisder the  smallest things such as how I was advertsing myself on the socials. I had to rethink which social media platforms work  for me be...

The scariest thing about being a young christian is the constant need to "fit in" the constant moments of "fomo" (fear of missing out) that pop out every time you engage with other young people. Our generation is constantly on the move, we are constantly coming up with new ways to make money, new ways to stay relevant and new ways to be trendsetters, in these busy lives of ours have we forgotten about God? Our relationship with him? Or will we probably do what everyone else does, put on a "churchy mask" wear it every sunday, raise our hands and shout 'your a good God' then go back to our normal lives? But yet again the question then goes back to what is normal?  Full time student, SA YouTuber and small business owner Bupe is on the run to make christian merchandise relevant, hip and exciting for all young christians finding it hard to "fit in"; 'we are different from other young people, yes I'm a sinner, yes I make mis...